[ Why the human life is too short??? ]

Good day,

Suddenly i dont know what is the reason i start to talk in english with everyone include my roomate..althought its is mixed with bahasa also...althought i realize my english is broken english but i dont mind...

Suddenly when this afternoon i wake up..I got some feeling that i must be feel sorry to God that what i had done for this 22 years time...I need to do the good things...

Is it the signal that given to me that my life at here is no longer..it will finish it in a short time...I start to feel scare... Or i will lost someone that i love i care about it in the short time... i hope that will not be true..

I dont want to lose myself here...dont want to lose my family members...dont want to lose my friends too...I have not ready yet.. Oh my god..pls help me... I pray for you...

I have not ready yet for it that will happen to me...I was cry when i thinks all of this things....what should i do??

God pls help me...I dont want the same feeling like 5 years ago.... Pls................................ :(

Suddently my dad is calling me when i am write this blog..... I really shock... what actually the planning of the God... I am crying when talking to my parent..but i try to not  do that because i dont want them to know it...I dont want them to worry about me...

Oh my god...pls...dont take anyone from me that i know in my life....pls.......no..............

Pls..... dun............................do it my God....